calming down section...
I am coming here to calm down after reading and posting in the "Hot Topic" forum. I am sooooo angry right now. I need to focus on self calming...... I'm going to go do some deep breathing and I'll be back online later.
"I've got sensory induced insomnia"
Is THAT what it is?? I thought i was just keyed up. Cool. A label!!
nora
My insomnia is truly sensory induced. So that is what I call it due to my literal way of speaking, and "keyed" up always sounded like a piano to me. - lol
Just found out this medication i was prescribe has steroids. Not good. Now may not be able to sleep. I hate being ill!! ( you should see how i type. i put spaces in th middle of words and then run the next three words together. I can't wite the without ommiting th e. Fuuny and hard to read even for me)
As far as the little exprssions go: my mothr had a million of them and they bring such funny pictures to my mind. I enjoy the unintended humour. I caught the bug and use far too many of them. i think it was my attempt to pass as a NT.
I am also wound up ( see the key in my back LOL) about the boy who is in trouble in arkanas. Been running thru my websites to find someone who can help I need to get my own life a little tighter befor helping others but then i think someone needs to do something and i only know for sure I want to help.
Will try to sleep I hope you are doing th same.
Nora
Nora, I know what you mean about the funny sayings because I picked up quite a few growing up in the south. I have some hilarious stories about how I took many of them literally for years before discovering their true meaning.
It rarely happens now that I am older as I've probably heard most of them; although every now & then my teenagers bring a new one home & they have to give me a once over. - lol. It's weird too, because when I learn a new slang phrase it becomes ingrained in my mind and I become mildly obsessed with wanting to find a way to use it in my conversations. (that's probably strange, right?) 
As far as the Zakh Price case, I think it's great you're wanting to be involved. I have found personally that the more I keep myself busy doing productive things (especially advocacy) it lifts my spirits and that is good for me in every way!
Sharon,
I also take things very literally. I am to the last to get a joke( or get it at all) so i'm more often than not, made the target of jokes. It makes me angry when people purposly do this.
If i felt like i wa making ny differnc at ll i would b thrilled but motly i just spin my wheel on these matters.
I sent this info to peopl i think could hav some ideas about this. i just can't keep my had about his sort of thing. I feel so sad and i remember how my life was as a child and it sends me into a bad mental place. Nobody desires what he is and has had to endure. i had the word hould caue it means so many things. You should behave like this and you should not take things so personanlly. many waus of using the word. I keep thinking people should not treat kids like this. They do though. I can even imgine what the school is going thru. They are following practices they believe are "good" Even NT kids have a hard time in school. We give our precious childen to school and even NT kids have it hard. Instructors are taught you teach kids this way, you control a bunch of rambuntious kids this way. how does our thinking go so wrong that we are wiling to behave like this??
nora who is not having her best day
Newnoz, hope you are feeling better! I agree with you. School is a tough place. I have an autie and an NT, and they both describe very complicated situations from time to time. This Zakh Price case seems desperately unfair.
Things have sure changed though ... not necessarily for the better except for some of the anti-bullying programs, which seem to work fairly well at my daughter's school.
Back when I was a kid, I remember having to cope with bullies who hated me for 1) getting straight A's and having my work displayed on the wall all the time, 2) not being physically coordinated, and 3) wearing Buddy Holly glasses. I also had a ... shall we say .. unique fashion sense that didn't help matters any.
The teachers told me "Well, hit them back and make it hurt. Then they won't bother you anymore." A pacifist whose parents were adamantly opposed to the Vietnam War then raging, I was mortified.
Can you imagine teachers saying that to kids these days? Maybe they do in the South where my mom lives. But not here in So Cal.
I've always had a unique sense of fashion. Likewise the husband. I went to grade school in the fifties. Plaid was popular. I wore clunky shoes because of my wide feet.
anti bullying is a real problem. Bullies are hard to change. IMO its about making bullying less unattractive and painful for the bully as it is to the victim. As a parent i had to remember to make sure that my kids behavior became their problem and not mine. I found this a complete revolution in thinking and still use it elsewhere. With bullies i am not sure how to do this.
BTW what part of SoCal do u live? I lived there most of this earthly life. SouthBay, Hawthorne and the SF Valley areas Family all over CA. ( if u want to share)
West Orange County, not far from Long Beach. I grew up near Los Angeles, about a decade behind you in school.
Not quite sure what to do about bullies either, to be frank. Middle school is a whole other kettle of fish, sad to say. As we contemplate moving my son back to regular school, we are requesting a trained shadow. Otherwise, given my son's tendency to lapse into cornered wild animal behavior, we might wind up with a situation hauntingly similar to Zakh's. My son will turn 13 this year.
I was going to take this off this topic but in trying to send you a private email fom her i just got myself lost. This social networking client is not user friendly IMHO.
I grew up Hermosa Beach. Hermosa Beach didn't used to be like it is now. It was a very good place then too, weather, beach, clean etc but not rich. My parents wanted to live there and the land cost them $900 around 1950. I was born in 1952 and my parents built our house.
I have reoccurring nightmares of Junior High. And the stories i could tell.
I am fortunate that Jude, Phil's kids mother has to make the schooling desicions. I couldn't . She homeschools them. John does a few classes at the regular HS.
When my kids father got out of the sarmy we bough a place in hawthorne As much as Hermosa has gone up on the desirabily scale, Hawthorne has gone down. Inglewood even farther. Sad.
I go a mesage from FB today saying that my grandson has joined. I THINK its him. i am so hoping. I miss him like nobodies business. And yet in many ways i am better off here than in CA. In a few ways less (even leaving out Trader joes and Ben and Jerries and Mexican food!!) I have to relearn he system here. Learning the system is harder than many paying jobs IMHO
Thanks for writing to me!! Maybe i can find topic that sems appropriate.
I have a meeting with my sons school next week to start the process to getting my son back to a regular education school, but still will be in special ed. As it is now, he is in a level 3 school. The behaviors that he had in 1st grade isn't going to be accepted in 3rd grade or any other grade, as he gets older. I'm hoping he does great when we start trying the slow transition. I'm so afraid that they wont take anything we say seriously and they will do as the school wants to, and we will be back in a bad place. My sons currrent school can't find what motivates him.
Nora, how great that you mention Trader Joe's!
I am such a creature of habit that I ached for Trader Joe's. I wrote to them begging to open a store in Denver. No. Liquor laws are unworkable there. Of course, I missed many things about California. Weird that TJ's was up in the top ten. Great store. I used to shop at the first one that opened in/near Pasadena (not sure it's actually in Pasadena but close), with my parents. Forty years ago. I think a lot of it comes from my happy memories, the fact that my parents loved the store and would take me there.
Mexican food in Denver is rather strange. Well, maybe it is passable in the city, but in Littleton, weird. It was great to get back and eat, yeah, Yucatecan!
Homeschooling is tempting. Not workable for me. My son is bound and determined to go to school. I'd have to tie him down. Seriously. It would be so great not to have to deal with these horrible creatures (administrators). But alas. And the truth is, I work. I have to.
Junior high was rough, but not as rough as grade school, which still gives me nightmares. Shudder. I think part of it is that my parents' marriage tanked during those years, lots of histrionics and finally they split, which was a relief when it finally happened.
Genisa, best wishes with your meeting next week! I hope the tone is set for cheerful cooperation. Fingers crossed!
I wish my younger son has the attituede that your son has for being determined to go to school. I practally have to drag him out the door to go to his preschool, which is only half of a day(8:30-12noon). He will be in shock next year when he discovers that Kindergarten is ALL DAY!!!! Yah for me!!! If Jaden transitions okay, his school day will also be longer, as his current school only goes from 9-2 and the regular schools go from 8:30-3:05
These items are 1/2 a year old but i was agian attracted by the title. I need to go to bed and too many sad things are floating thu my head.
I just need to get it out and let go of all the various strands of today.
I need to talk to my son even if it is just hi how are you. haven't heard from him for several years now and I am miserable. Also i am on the opposite side of the planet
I love and hate moving and I'm in it now. We may be accepted for a place and then the box filling will be full on and i feel so tired just thinking about it.
I so want to be ble to have my dog inside and it seems almost impossible to find a rental house that will allow that here
I just want to be close to my husband but he and i are split up although we live together and since i would get back with him in a flash, well that's not a lot of fun.I just feel guilty cause he works and i don't and money is tight Somehow i always make him miserable Sometimes i don't even know why
I am trying to get a Toowoomba Adults with Aspergers group going along with 2 other women and it will make me happy but right now i have so much work to get all the bits and pieces together ASD adults need some assistance around this part of the world Moving to Brisbane, the city doesn't seem to me to be the solution and from some quarters i hear its not all that much better elsewhere
My memory seems more and more slippery though i swear it it was this bad before now i can remember <my little joke>
I'm gaining weight .. stress and cookies/biscuits My ability to hold anything together is not good. Food is one of my downfalls.
I need a day off but i also would fret and feel bad if i took one
It's cold here and its getting colder. QLD houses are not built to deal with cold High ceilings and no insulation.
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Plan A: Call daughter to hear that she sounds OK She will be moving from CA to FL soon.
Write son and grandson: birthdays are coming for both of them
Do not waste time on FB ( hard) Read, write draw, goof around with dog, call friends
Make up some menus
Go to bed by 10
Good night world its 11:44
Tell my HP to take care of everything i can't do by myself ( tonight that feels like everything )
Are you feeling better Genisa? I see you're back online. I've got sensory induced insomnia, so I may be up for a bit ....just checking out how things went in the forum today. Let me know how you are doing.