difficulty starting art project...
anyone else find that you like sorting your art supplies, organizing them, etc. more than you like actually doing an art project? I find that doing the sorting, etc is very calming and I feel like I am making some kind of progress. Getting myself more organized. When i comes to doing an art project, I find it very hard to get started. I first want everything in its place. Everything has to be just perfect. then I am hesitant to start becasue I am worried that what I envision in my mind, is not what will come out on paper. I feel my self esteem is a big issue that causes me to not even try it. Why can't I just grab up my stuff and go at it?
Sorry this is an older post, but I always have difficulty starting and finishing my art because of the preparation/changing tasks involved. I want to start doing art more often, like I used to. I think my ritalin helps a bit.
for me I must do certain things first before I can do my art project. Things like needing the whole house nice and organized( which is near impossible) I need an nice organized environment to reduce my anxiety so that I can calm down enough to round up all of my things, have the environment just right, and of course, trying to find a time when the kids are not around( when they are sleeping) and by then I am too tired. uggg.
"anyone else find that you like sorting your art supplies, organizing them, etc. more than you like actually doing an art project?"
Yes Genisa
I actually came her to look for a way to get my project going again
I do find i likethings just so when i do anything, art or not which means many things have a nightmare quality to them
I am starting to consider writing or painting about my difficulty I see Frieda Kahlo painting herself over and over and showing her psyche to the world. Why not i think.
I prefer my beautiful stuf but perhaps the ugly moods and ifdea could have value too
I also keep thinking about interuprtions and that horrid feeling of being therown out of heaven into a momentary hell of daily experince when my psyche is assaulted by the concerns of daily living. I find that incredibly painful.
And other people find it incredibly painful when i turn and scream at them .. well i don't mean to, i don't want to but it is painful and they have no way of knowing.. except i've told them over and over not to do it.
I gave it up except at school for years when my kids were at home. I admire anyone who can work with kids around. Once i'm in the groove i'm fine. If they bleed i might use the blood for paint before i remember what it is and the source .. actually probaly not since i have never taken that sort of chance.
I just wish there wassuch a thing as a house that stays clean and a space that was just for me.
Nora
Now that would be great!!! My own room for my art studio. Only I can go in there and no one else, so when I leave the room, it will stay the way I left it, not look like a tornado hit is while i was gone. I also find that painting ceramics nice and relaxing. I have an 18" tall "Welcome" ceramic that looks like it is engraved into a large stone, and a nice cute frog on top. I am doing stains on it, but do not like that it is oil based. ick.
I also know non-autistic artists who are nervous about starting a new art piece; met quite a few of them at Fine Art courses in university. What we found helped was doing practice drawings and mini-paintings in sketchbooks and brown kraft paper, or newsprint paper. Basically, do stuff on scrap artpaper that it won't matter, cause it's practice. Also, starting with a medium-tone colour for a background/canvas, instead of a clean white canvas, is less intimitating.
I have been feeling this way for a long while...very annoying. My advice is just to dive in and start something, anything, it doesn't matter what it is, it doesn't matter if it is good or bad, anything will do.
Do you keep a sketchbook? If not, this is something you should look into. I keep and make my own sketchbooks, to doodle, draw, paste photos, things I like, write, etc. At first I tried to be "perfect" even in my sketchbook but I soon realized that I can do anything I want and don't have to worry about it since no one will see it but me.
I often take what is in my sketchbook and later create "real" art projects.
"Beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror" - Rilke
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