hard to let it go
i never thought anyone would marry me let alone bet married or fall in love and so it happened. and now i'm fighting a divorce and heartache and i'm just besides myself. i picked the wrong person and he kept showing wrong signs, after we got married even on the honeymoon. more so he was a bad person and some of my family members on one side who i dont get along much didn't like him so now i'm sorta pushed away from them even further then before even though i said i was sorry when they asked me to say it. when i couldnt get out of the parking lot because he was blocking my car yelling and screaming during a fight and then getting in the car and continue i decided to call the police because he wasn't leting me leave without him there. it sounds crazy but it scared me. that when i decided i had to get a divorce. now a few years later as i'm getting help i still think about him and can't understand why i do. he was the first boyfriend i had. and prob the last. i hope not but i just don't get why it just wont go away still.
ughh
jenn
Jenn,
I am not a therapist, but I can speak from someone who has gone through exactly what you described. What you are feeling is common, and natrural. Moste especially for those of us with vulnerabilities, because we do not easily allow ourselves to form connections, and when we do - WE DO. It is uggg, eh?!
You did good, Jenn, To walk away from a relationship where you were not being valued as a person is very important. We teach others how to treat us, and if we continue to do this over and over again, then we begin to attract people towrad us who are healthy and worthy of the kind of friendship and/or love which we have to offer.